Friday, October 23, 2009

이제 다시
사랑 안해
말하는 난
너와 같은 사람
다시 만날수가
없어서
사랑할수 없어서
바보처럼
사랑 안해
말하는 널
사랑한다
나를 잊길 바래
나를 지워줘

5:45 AM

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

everyday i feel nothing but
a great need to just die
ok i dont mean it suicidal-ly.
i wish i could be carefree like those
conveniently apathetic,
irresponsible, selfish, thick-skinned,
self-glorifying lil shites lurking
around me these days.
i worry 473% more than they do
and yet all i'll ever get in return
is just a shortened life span and
a really pathetic, worry-strickened life.
and then that.
i just feel too sorry for myself
hoho guess if you knew you would too.

6:28 PM

Sunday, October 18, 2009

wish my hands would stop
degenerating; need to
play the sad good -
opus 62 no.2 nocturne in E

9:36 PM

21 for XYY

hello
hell week
hell hole
hell hell hell !!!

4:11 PM

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

Vance: [reading one of Tom's cards]
Roses are red, violets are blue... fuck you whore.

oh take a bite of reality,
the sobering truths about
modern romance:
500 days of summer!

10:40 AM

Thursday, October 15, 2009

can't, not today.
every day else i will grace the world
with my rationality and courage
but today i just want to shut down
and just indulge in Very Sad.
i just want to quit it all and
fall comfortably into mediocrity,
i just want to be ok
but what the hell,
tomorrow will be the same anyway.
and the day after, the same darned story
will run over and over.
it's hard, it's all hard.
in my mind, all i want are THESE
but it's hard, it's always hard.
in this moment
i can be the hopeless wuss that i secretly am
and when tomorrow comes its back to
work and i will need to be better.
which i will be. the recovery mechanism
always kicks in dutifully, so everythg feels
better the next day until The Feeling
attacks you again.
its more convenient to be privately tired,
privately affected, privately unable to cope
and privately wondering why
there's so little that i love that
i can ever afford to have.
when im sad i need to sleep to not think
but the reality of life is that i have
AB311 to do and thats the only thing that
is real. sadness is not real.

10:17 PM

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

it might be unusual you
or the sob story or
the heartwrench or
the idea of it all or something.
oh look what you've done
you made a fool of everyone.

9:01 PM

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Ba da da ba da...
Let's pack our bags
and lie on the easy stream
feel the water on our backs
where we can carry on dreamin'
where we can finally
be where we'd like to be
Darlin', just you and me

5:48 PM

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

about 2/10 these days :(
welcome to self/mutual destruction again.
drove for the first time today
i feel like an adult.

11:09 PM

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

you lose all bargaining power when _________

7:41 PM

Monday, October 05, 2009

2NE1 #12938 :)

10:11 PM

Sunday, October 04, 2009

JUST NEEDED TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST:
I HATE YOUR FREAKIN SLOPPY LOUSY WORK ARGH.

8:11 PM

urg so much bad news these days
all the terrible disasters and blah
going on everywhere now is probably an
indication of the impending
End of the World.
so according to the holy ones at home
everything on the Bible is coming true
and if all goes according to plan
God is coming to judge us soon and
like some zomg Noah's Ark II will happen.
ok ok ok so maybe you're like me
and you have on a tight schedule
to get religious like asap.
yes yes yes pls pls pls.
in the shizzy world like
this we have happy babies

5:25 PM

Saturday, October 03, 2009

twentyone and the boomz.

12:21 AM